Busy Blantons

Today has been a crazy day! I was reminded that I have a blog, and should use it more, and I agree..but really have such little time on the computer, and the time I do have I am either doing work, or playing on facebook. I sometimes just assume that my picture uploads are enough, but today I was reminded that pictures aren't enough. I was reminded that keeping people up to date on what is happening is sometimes important. I don't call people as much, but not because I don't care, but because time just gets away from me. I have friends that are very dear to my heart, and I really only talk to them a few times a year, and maybe only see them once or twice. Yet, they know I care, and my life wouldn't be the same with out them. So, for friends like Nicole know that I love you, and I think about you, and I value our friendship even though I'm not invovled all of the time.

Today I realized that a long time friendship is over. It's kinda strange to me becuase I have shared so many intimate details of my life with this person. I have friends that I have drifed away from, and she is one of the them, but at the same time she fell in the category above. Kinda, we actually talked way more then a few times a year, but that is besides the point. I write this because it's such a weird thing for me. There is this part of me that feels like someone has died. How do you just stop being friends...acuaintances even. Really? Do you just delete on their phone numbers, e-mails, etc. How sad is that? "I just delete you." Then there have been times when I have felt this friendship was completely unhealthy, but I am also a strong believer that all relationships evolve. As this person and I "grew apart" I had come to terms that she would be someone I talked to every now and then. She would still be someone I went to visit, and she for certain be on the top 10 people to call when our family grew, or when there was a new stepping stone in my life. She would be always be someone I would have been there for in an emergency. So, it's weird to think that poof...we just hit "delete." Four years ago we had one of our falling outs over how much I valued our friendship. She felt as though I didn't have as much invested as she did. It was always strange to me that decisions I had made always seemed to be a black cloud over us. Yet, today, those decisions were confirmed. I had just as much invested in our friendship, but there was more to consider. I can clearly say I have made the correct decisions. Anwyas, enough ambiguity. I don't want to call this person out over a blog. As a matter of fact if she ever read this blog I wouldn't be posting it. She's never been one to read my blog, even when I did post often. So, this is more of a place for me to somewhat vent, and write out my feelings. Also, I wanted to share with others that real friendships and relations evolve into whatever they may be. I'm just not sure how I feel about being "dumped."

So to my friends and family out there who like to share in my life. I get busy, life changes, but what is my heart remains.